Currently Listening Fly Away From Here By Aerosmith fly away from here see related

I need to get away from here. I need to get away from this state.Im tired-physically, emotionally and mentally.I really wanna take a vacation..to be with myself and with nature..I miss Cebu. I miss just hanging out without worrying of having enough money for the following week.I miss watching tv,sleeping anytime i want..just be a bum for awhile. I need to replenish my energy.But then again, going back means I have to put up with the family that's living in my lolo's house. I cant stand them and most importantly I won't leave wihtout my baby going with me.Maybe i just need time to think and fix myself. Things have gotten from good to bad and from bad to worse and now its getting better (only if I get transfered to the email team anyway). I never thought its this tough being independent.If my baby wasnt here with me, life would have been more difficult. I realized the importance of money. Welcome to the real world! i need to get back on track and reorganize my thoughts and set goals. IF ever I get transfered to the email team, i might stay here a lil bit longer, if not i'll stay until regularization and off I go to another company with a much bigger pay. Staying here wouldnt pay my bills. Ive been working since feb but  until now I have no savings. All I have is debts.And I hate so much having debts. I wanna pay it all off then save some money and go to camiguin with my baby.I need to grow as an employee.If I can't then Id better work in a high paying job, save some money and put up a business so I'll be my own boss.That's the only way as I see it.Wherever I go there I will always find fault from companies and I just end up getting frustrated. Im still young but I wanna work on my future as early as NOW.Perhaps seeing my relatives going through a lot of crises has impacted my perception  in life. I need to break free from this matrix...break free from the chain...One of these days I'll certainly find a quiet place to contemplate...hopefully...